Friday, August 27, 2010

Let's talk about.. College!!

So I've just finished my first week of college- if three days can be considered a week. It started on Wednesday. I have to say.. I absolutely love it. I love the thrill of seeing cute guys, meeting new people, figuring out my schedule. I love having a reason to get all dolled up for a day. I even love getting up at five in the morning.. Well, maybe I don't love that. But I do love why I get up so early. It's fantastic.
There were a few kinks in my schedule, and I'm not too happy with the way some of them turned out. I am content, however, because guess what? I can go next semester! O:= And next semester I will definitely register earlier so I can be sure to get all the classes and times I want. For now, I've got some pretty good stuff going on. (: Yoga, social dance, guitar.. And some crazy stuff I never thought I would take- finance, analysis of argument.. Weird. But I think I like it.
My financial aid still hasn't gone through.. Which could possibly pose a problem in the future. (Ha, possibly pose a problem. I think that sounds funny.) But I'm not too worried about it. I've got myself convinced it will go through just fine, and that conviction is not without reason. So for now I'm just playing the waiting game. I think for being such an impatient person, that's a game I play remarkably well. :P
I'm so excited to be going to college. I feel like this is the door to doing something worthwhile with my life- although I still have no idea what it is, I'm sure this can help me get there. I don't know if they will be upset with me mentioning this(love you mom and dad) but neither of my parents finished college. My dad dropped out and my mom never even started. I have hope that if I can just get to my associates, just two years, I will never be stuck where they are now- dead end jobs, dickhead bosses, and unable to give their family what it wants. I love my parents with all I am and it breaks my heart to see them here. I don't want my children to feel the same.
Not to say I intend to stop with an associates. I'm sure I will go above and beyond! But that is a milestone I will celebrate.
College has never really been an option for me. I always knew I would go- I just didn't know where or when. To be honest, I wasn't going to go this semester. I'm glad my friends convinced me to. It's a decision I wouldn't take back for the world.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm really ready for college. I have no money, no plan, no set-in-stone future. I'm extremely childish(in a good way, I think), and I've no idea if I'm ready for this. But I like to think I am. I like to believe that this is where I'm meant to be, right here, right now. That I'm going the right direction, and the rest will come with time. I believe that with all my heart.
So that's all I have for now. I'm sure there will be more about college as the year progresses. But for now, all I have to say is "Le coeur a ses raisons, que la raison ne connait point." Adieu. (:


  1. The first semester of college is always fun and exciting. You love seeing new people everyday, meeting new people in your classes and outside of your classes, etc. But, depending on the semester and your instructors, it can go from fun, to stressful and depression. The good news is though, there is always a change of pace every semester, which is always nice!

    Good luck in college!

  2. Its awesome that your going to college!!! I finally found ur new blog :S i was thinking you hadnt posted in awhile :) <3 you! you fork :P