Thursday, July 22, 2010

(who i want to be..)

I think I know who I wanna be. But I'm not that person, so I'm not gonna think about it. Maybe one day I'll be brave enough to be who I want. I don't think I'll have a choice when it comes down to it. I know that who I want to be is great, but I'm not ready to think of myself as that person. I don't know if I'm strong enough to be her.. That girl I can see.. And I don't want to be let down. I don't want to pretend at all. I don't want to not be sure about who I am, to feel like it's not something I can be. When I'm ready to be who I am, it will be a wonderful transformation. Because who I want to be is a wonderful person. She's not afraid to stand up for what she believes. She's open and decisive..
I said I wasn't gonna think about it. I'm a liar face. :P But I didn't mean it, promise! One day I'll get there.. But not today. Today I'm still 19. Probably more naive than I think. Flighty, opinionated, and often wrong. I'm not ready. But I know I will be. And hopefully, that's enough.

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1 comment:

  1. I think you are a great person. Today. Even if it is not the person you see your self as.

    I still am working to be who I want to be too. I feel closer to that person today than I ever have. I am 35 years old. :)